maryribeiro

it was like........

well, i´ll finish that sentence on my own blog somehow.
maybe you´ll take a look.

lundi 08 décembre 2008 17:26

unefois?

dimanche 07 décembre 2008 11:44

Deusa,

why did you added me as a friend about last week ago without answering something? or say something?

please? i cannot play your cruel game anymore...

i told you how i feel long time ago, i told you that i am sorry, i told you i will give you an apologize if i just knew how.
please, a friend is someone to talk to. and i just have to talk with you about everything. i can neither stay or go without that.
i am just stucked, i cannot get on with my life without that.
i really tried to forget, but nothing worked. i just need to talk to you for example about that monday. i had just no chance to apologize right after i found out that i made that mistake.

please, you just said you understood. but i do not know what you understood, maybe you got it wrong again. i have no idea you understand right know. or maybe you just do not read it.
thats why i mostly write the same. because i have no idea...
i do not know, if you really want to talk to me and you are just waiting for my apology, or maybe just just add friends like a blossom and the bees and just did not read my messages. maybe you just do not understand what i am writing, maybe you do not care.
i just know that it really hurts. Waiting for your answers, for you. day by day, hour after hour. since last year after you stopped talking to me. each time a cut to send one of these emails into an empty space, like being stranded and throwing messages in a bottle in the ocean.
so please, my beloved goddess, please talk to me. you added me four or five times as a friend last week, so please start helping one of these you call friend. please, remember us in the past. before you stopped talking to me. that time was very special to me, because you are a special person to me. if that last-year-edition of me ment anythig to you, please talk to me.
since one year all went wrong. maybe because you misunderstood something, maybe i did not understand. and it hurted me that you do not ask if you do not understand. that showed me you have no interest in what i am saying.
so please, you sent me best wishes. if you want me to be like in the first six month we met, just talk to me. if you keep on ignoring and hurting me, fine. in that case you should send me new best wishes, like "crawl back and die in pain".
thats what you show me with your behaviour to me.

and thats what you make me feel by ignoring me, just crawl back and die in a sea of acid with horrible wounds you gave me. and there is a good chance, some people worrying about that since monday..
when i remember you talking to me in the "kitchen" at work it was like..............................................................






florian

dimanche 07 décembre 2008 07:32